Hands

I hear my family asking for the prayers of others and praying themselves. They ask God for an answer to life’s most uncertain moments. The part that I  don’t get is when someone is randomly asking questions and they don’t believe it is God who is responding. Does God have to open the sky and speak for us to believe it’s him? I wouldn’t think so.

I want to personally believe that God has his hand in every aspect of my life no matter how big or small. I don’t know for sure and I can’t answer all life’s most complicated theological questions, But, for me some moments are enough for me to believe. Like everyone else I still fall into doubt and my question today is why is that?

When me and my wife first arrived in California we were poor. No food, no money, no phone, she was distraught and truthfully I was too. At the time the only thing I knew to do was to pray.

We prayed in the kitchen that day. We prayed hard and long. Most importantly we did it together. Before we finished saying Amen someone was knocking on our door with two boxes of food. It was a welcome party saying they was coming to someone else’s house that happened to not be home, saw our rent a car, and the baby seat inside of it. We ate that day and for the next couple of days, weeks, and months we didn’t question God. We didn’t question what could be done through prayer. But, every so often we run into an issue that we think is too big. We question his capabilities just like everyone else, Why ? If he has shown up before why do we wonder if it’s possible again? Faith is difficult and anyone that says otherwise is not being honest with themselves. Faith asks us to believe in the invisible hand of God and dispel or discard our own logic. Logic is what makes us human right? Faith is what makes us Chosen.